mundane, mundane, mundane

grad tea just concluded last week. it's been a long and meaningful journey and i'm just thankful for the friends i've met in MI :)

that aside, studying's like no tmr. everyday the same old boring thing mannn. this sucks, and i'm seriously looking forward to the end of it all, really. it just sucks to know all the sec and j1 kids just ended their last day of official school today.

i'm seriously looking forward to weekends, like never before.

take me higher

you can say i'm pretty much motivated to study and work hard
and also keeping myself fit.
getting kinda fat lately, heh.
the sucky part is that the hols are coming for most ppl,
but all i got left to do is mug, oh wells.

btw i just realised that there's very thin line
between being wise and being cunning,
being witty and being sarcastic
being nice and being superficial
i guess it's just a matter of choice

i've also come to realise
that it's really important to know what you believe in
and to know the purpose behind the things you do.
cos at the end of it all,
when everything strips away
purpose will keep you going, will keep you firm :)

sometimes, i really don't know whether i should be disappointed in you.

close to my heart

my bffff finally replied my email;
i miss you loves,
esp your infamous thuderous voice,
hehehehe.
2 months more and i'll see you again :)

right now just thinking about a few ppl,
wondering how they're doing over at their side..

i just hope you're doing fine in your exams bro.
frankly speaking, i'm pretty sure you won't end up in 4NA
but even if GOD wills it,
i know you did your best
and i'll still be proud of ya :)
praying for you.

for me, i guess i got a bigger exam to prepare for,
doing my best and letting HIM do the rest.

i'm sick of living in your shadow

i say goodbye,
this is my life
you're not a friend so stop pretending
don't even try.
i say goodbye,
tired of that lie oh yeaheyeaheyeaheyeaheyeah
i say goodbye,
this is my life
good times are gone i'm moving on
it's your turn to cry.
i say goodbye,
gone in the night oh yeaheyeaheyeaheyeaheyeah
goodbye.

btw,
i thank GOD for dinner with aaron today;
it's hard to find people who think the same way you do :)

gotta work hard ben,
it's the a's - do well or die.

the game of love

the game of love
is tricky and risky, dont you think?

whenever i hear that song,
im reminded of christmas;
an image of a cozy house
with me and my loved ones in it,
celebrating the season together.
the warmth, the love, the oh-so-special-feeling..
who are the people in that house with me?
i'd like to think of that now :)
these people are definitely special,
cos they make me really happy.

btw, the house bunny was a good show.

climb every mountain higher

prelim results were pretty surprising
i would say.
all 4 subjects made an improvement
with MOB improving by about 20 marks man!
to think i studied MOB the least, sigh.
a couple of disappointments,
but i guess a BBD & D for GP is pretty encouraging.
1 more month left,
and hell breaks lose.

sometimes, i admit that im fearful.
i was never what you call a bright student.
i rarely scored a's in exams
and my o's were a total flung.
but that was all in the past -
and it's time to change history.
with the strength of the ONE above,
there's no need to fear.

be still ben
and just do your best.

that aside,
i realised that i'll rather
care for someone who would appreciate my efforts
even though i may not feel as much for that person.

let it wash away my sanity

eating reese's makes me happy,
nothing beats peanut butter and chocolate together :)

it's funny how sometimes my mood can change so fast, really.
oh wells.

it's okay, we'll study hard for the a's, especially econs.
we'll prove them wrong.

and you can say that i'm not gonna bother about you anymore.
go leave in your own world.
guess you ain't a great friend after all..
too bad for me then;
for actually bothering about you.
i hate to say this but
one day, you'll learn it the hard way.