what i've done

i had a good week i guess.
CT turned out to be alright.
my goal - pass all.
apart from that i had 2 days of no school (:
good time of relaxing and catching up with friends man.

my friend once told me that there's a purpose behind
every friendship he makes.
at first i was kinda skeptical about it
but as i thought about it, it makes sense.
i ought to sort my thoughts again.

sometimes i wish i had self control;
not just the words that come out of my mouth
but also in my actions and emotions..
i just wish i could control myself better;
i wouldn't have said/done so many impulsive and stupid things.
but what's done is done,
don't look back, start now.
i'm still under refining, mind you (:

i think i've found my total opposite;
yet with such a friend i'm actually learning more about myself, hah.
how long will this go on, i really wonder..

alright, school's tomorrow.
and im so stressed about hockey, gah.
i guess i'm slowly learning the art of letting go (:

blasttt!

CNY was as a usual,
yet a good distraction.
a great time
away from CT,
away from hockey,
away from whatever shit else problems.
and though i feel ill,
i sure had some fun!

"sometimes its good to let the head lead the heart."

whatever it is,
no matter how tough/painful it was/is
no matter how much shit i had to go through
something good came out of it
like i told jason
"you go through similar circumstances again to know how much you've grown."
i don't deny that i still do care, a lot
but this time,
i'll just say "come what may"
((:

for i know what'er befall me, jesus doeth all things well.
this my song thru endless ages, jesus led me all the way.
(:

today sure was fun (tiring & painful too)
but fellowship sure is sweet,
especially if its over wii, HAHAHA!




baby, you make me smile ((:
even if its just 10 mins of your voice.

here i go again

week's been tiring as usual
i don't have any days whereby i can really sleep til' i'm satisfied =(
CNY's round the corner
but i've been too tired and busy
to actually shop until finally today.
CT's after that, more studying to do!

well, it certainly was great to be back in church this weekend again
though i go twice every week,
somehow things are always refreshing and new (:
i just thank GOD for the company of church friends;
i feel recharged.
yes, there's still certain things i still need to get over every week,
but hey, there's more to just that.

sometimes i wonder why i have to experience dejavu all over again
maybe i thought i was strong, maybe i thought i was ready
hah, looks like i still have a long way to go after all (:

GOD sure knows what HE's doing,
and i ought to be thankful for that.
i guess right now
it's come what may;
whatever will be, will be
all according to HIS plan (:
i just need the wisdom and strength to face it.

though sometimes i admit
i just can't understand why certain things must happen
but then again
blessed is the man who puts his trust in GOD,
amen.

hanging on

i tried to be strong, but sometimes
it's really tough.
i wish i could see this coming.
i still don't understand why you just
had to say all those things to me.
why did you tell me all those things
in the past
only to contradict yourself now?
now i know why you insisted
that you've never neglected me;
i wasn't someone worth your time
in the first place.

wishful thinking

somehow i was hoping
that you didnt mean whatever you said.
i was hoping, hoping
that dejavu didn't have to strike again.

untitled

school's coming to an end for the week, three cheers for that.
i've been waking up with the same thought everyday
"can i skip school today?"
school really sucks sometimes
but as usual, friends keep me going.

sometimes i just find it annoying
when people pass judgements on you
especially when they don't know shit about you.
all this plainless gossip and bitching
i just wish some people would stop being so freaking immature
well, the world's as superficial as always.

but then again, i shouldn't be so bothered.
i should only care about what GOD
and my true friends say.

tmr's gonna be an exciting day,
i just can't wait to end my school week with a bang.

all of a sudden coffeebean's like my favourite hangout place.
it just brings back so many fun memories.

alas

sometimes, i really wish you didn't have to be a come and go friend.
but i guess you did after all.