he is my all in all

GOD is good all the time and
all the time, GOD is good.

i sure had a rough week
with disappointments here and there.
but you know going back to church on weekends
just changes everything.
church and my church friends
just turns everything around.
i really really thank GOD for church.

yes, janice and jon wong are gone.
jan will be back asap this i know
but jon will be away for a year at least
and i admit that im really gonna miss him alot
in so many ways..
i'll miss their support definitely,
but i will carry on :)

i guess it's about time
i use the head over heart.
no more will i tarry in this limbo
instead i will use wisdom to guide me instead.

i guess i've learnt much this week
about GOD, about myself, about service.
now, service to me has changed, for the better.
but one thing that really struck me -
GOD will always provide.
whenever i'm lonely, down or sad
He'll always provide someone to be there for me
it doesn't have to be a close friend or family
but GOD sure has HIS ways in lifting me :)

life is indeed difficult, more often than we know it
but i guess with GOD everything just changes.
just open your eyes to the things around you,
and you'll realise that GOD provides;
more often than you know it :)
goodnight.

キミのとなりで

i've been thinking alot lately,
about life and everything else.
i guess there's still a handful of things i need to sort out...

i wish i could always be that cheery, like how
everyone always associates me with being cheery.
i guess not many people know that there's actually more to me.

we all gotta change once in a while

today was fun, all the bowling and arcade madness;
really wished some of you guys could be there with us.

btw, im hooked on watching olympics, i think.
and im supposed to be studying.

this is for the good times, this is for the good life

i just found out that the swimming pool slide at my place is da bomb :)

i kinda realised that im quite a selfish person actually,
caring for others largely depends on my mood or emotional state..
i guess something needs to be done about it.

and i realised that sometimes time is everything.

oooh baby oooh baby oooh baby

3 months left,
i can't imagine myself studying everyday like this for 3 more months.
but i thank GOD for being there for me.

and yes, i've been having a bad stomach.

and i just had this pus swelling up underneath my new skin (cos i scrapped my knee in june)
i was pissed off trying to squeeze it out i decided to take a scissors and cut through my skin =)
got rid of the bloody pus.

i've been thinking over some stuff lately.
sometimes, it's scary how falliable man can be.
one minute they can be with you,
the next thing you know it they end up betraying you..
i also realise how fragile friendships can be -
easy come, easy go too.
it all boils down - who can i really trust?
even our own family can let us down.
i guess i ought to be thankful for what i have,
and always remember that when
you put GOD in the right place, human relationships wont hurt as much.

glad i could impact someone today
he actually said
"ben what i really need now is some good encouragement and you really gave me a good one, thanks"
it's nice to be able to be there for someone, hmm?

ladymade star

i'm hooked on DJ MAX
and my sis is too, heh.
i've been spending a great deal time with my church peeps,
endless trail of fun, joy and laughter.
once again, thank GOD for them.

and today, i got to be honest with you =)

school resumes tomorrow,
gotta go back to studying mode!

hold on to patience and watch for the signs

exams are finally over,
and to add on i had a total of 3 days off from school, shiok!
i'm so glad my bffff uploaded all the mission trip photos,
i had a great time reminisicing today,
with much grins here and there.
you know, the mission trip empowerment thingy
hasn't left me yet,
leaving me in awe and surprise.
i guess we never know how GOD can truly impact us eh?

as time goes by, i'm seeing friendships in a different light.
being my old immatured self,
thinking that
different levels of friendship
refers to doing only a fixed set of stuff or activities
but as time goes by
i realise that the people you don't converse with everyday
could actually be the people who can click with you the most,
in fact they could be the ones who really appreciate you.
i guess it's all in the beauty of a relationship with anyone -
parents, siblings, friends and partners
anyone could be special to you in a special way,
maybe in a way no one else will understand,
maybe in way even you don't understand either
but you know you're certainly enjoying such a friendship =)

okay, i don't why i'm suddenly sprouting such stuff
but i really had a great time today catching up
with someone i dont get to see really often, maybe once a week.
eating western food, slurping my taohuey
chit chatting away and sharing lives
i think that's what a true friendship is all about.
that's why i really thank GOD for christian friends.
i'll probably be dead by now if i haven't had them.

but anyways
i still need GOD's guidance and assurance in many aspects in my life
especially when it comes to relationships of any sort,
where emotions are involved and where wisdom is required.
i prolly can't survive on my own instincts, i need help from above.
whatever it is, Jesus doeth all things well,
i ought to cast my doubts and concerns on Him instead.
well, now we being christians, i guess we ain't the rulers of our lives anymore (:

alright i'm off to bed
really excited for YF tmr with many "new" faces who are coming back (: