he giveth and giveth again

sometimes, i admit that i seriously wished that
alot of things didn't have to turn out this way..
but what can i do but to accept it the way things are?
isn't HE in control?

i guess one good way to cheer myself
is to actually cheer others up =)
inside of feeling down and keep on harping on such thoughts
why not channel your effort to make an impact on someone else's life instead?

just remember:
GOD will provide ben, GOD will provide.

i'll pull through

maybe, just maybe one day
you'll realise how much of a friend i was to you.

well, i gotta get on with my own life..
HE'll always see me through,
even though very often things don't exactly go the way i wished or hoped for.

i'll always remember sunday's message : "GOD is purposeful."

he is my all in all

GOD is good all the time and
all the time, GOD is good.

i sure had a rough week
with disappointments here and there.
but you know going back to church on weekends
just changes everything.
church and my church friends
just turns everything around.
i really really thank GOD for church.

yes, janice and jon wong are gone.
jan will be back asap this i know
but jon will be away for a year at least
and i admit that im really gonna miss him alot
in so many ways..
i'll miss their support definitely,
but i will carry on :)

i guess it's about time
i use the head over heart.
no more will i tarry in this limbo
instead i will use wisdom to guide me instead.

i guess i've learnt much this week
about GOD, about myself, about service.
now, service to me has changed, for the better.
but one thing that really struck me -
GOD will always provide.
whenever i'm lonely, down or sad
He'll always provide someone to be there for me
it doesn't have to be a close friend or family
but GOD sure has HIS ways in lifting me :)

life is indeed difficult, more often than we know it
but i guess with GOD everything just changes.
just open your eyes to the things around you,
and you'll realise that GOD provides;
more often than you know it :)
goodnight.

キミのとなりで

i've been thinking alot lately,
about life and everything else.
i guess there's still a handful of things i need to sort out...

i wish i could always be that cheery, like how
everyone always associates me with being cheery.
i guess not many people know that there's actually more to me.

we all gotta change once in a while

today was fun, all the bowling and arcade madness;
really wished some of you guys could be there with us.

btw, im hooked on watching olympics, i think.
and im supposed to be studying.

this is for the good times, this is for the good life

i just found out that the swimming pool slide at my place is da bomb :)

i kinda realised that im quite a selfish person actually,
caring for others largely depends on my mood or emotional state..
i guess something needs to be done about it.

and i realised that sometimes time is everything.

oooh baby oooh baby oooh baby

3 months left,
i can't imagine myself studying everyday like this for 3 more months.
but i thank GOD for being there for me.

and yes, i've been having a bad stomach.

and i just had this pus swelling up underneath my new skin (cos i scrapped my knee in june)
i was pissed off trying to squeeze it out i decided to take a scissors and cut through my skin =)
got rid of the bloody pus.

i've been thinking over some stuff lately.
sometimes, it's scary how falliable man can be.
one minute they can be with you,
the next thing you know it they end up betraying you..
i also realise how fragile friendships can be -
easy come, easy go too.
it all boils down - who can i really trust?
even our own family can let us down.
i guess i ought to be thankful for what i have,
and always remember that when
you put GOD in the right place, human relationships wont hurt as much.

glad i could impact someone today
he actually said
"ben what i really need now is some good encouragement and you really gave me a good one, thanks"
it's nice to be able to be there for someone, hmm?