get up, buckle up and we'll move on

keep going ben,
keep doing your best.
in due time, by GOD's grace
everything will fall into place :)

i love church and my church friends;
very very very much.
they're people i'll always have.

someday we'll know why i wasn't meant for you

there'll always be friends you enjoy being with,
irregardless of age, background or personality :)

i sure had a tiring day,
teaching someone can be fun and tiring too.
now, it's time for a good sleep :)

and yes, HE's coming again.

self conflicted

yup, i guess
caring for someone unconditionally is indeed
an unrealistic, difficult thing to do.
and i'm not the only person who thinks so, heh.

that aside,
it's funny how we've one mind
but two different entities in it.
one desires to do what's right,
the other desires to do whatever it wants.
one desires to be selfless, caring and sensible,
the other, selfish, nonchalant and reckless.
for me,
i guess i struggle between
caring for others unconditionally
and wanting something in return; to be appreciated, to be reciprocated.
but i guess i ought to be selfless,
even if it means that whatever i do may go in vain.

btw, prelims are over
i'm taking a good break.
and i mean good.

take me away

as lame as it sounds,
but whenever i'm feeling blue, sad, confused or lost in thoughts
playing computer games actually helps.
all of a sudden, i dont need to bother anymore.

i love WoW, period.

my head spins

to think i actually dreamt of you
telling me you wanted to be with me..
but reality bites when i woke up, oh wells
hahahah.

that aside, prelims have been okay, i guess.
and i've been feeling sick.

feels good to be loved

she exclaimed "benjay!" as she jumped in, right in front of me;
with that ever so excited, ever so delighted face of hers.
"why are you so happy?" i asked her in disbelief.
she stepped forward quietly and whispered "i miss you"

looks like the highlight of the day
wasn't my crammed palm after all :)

slowly, we're shedding our old self

jona said,
"it's always this phase we go through"

after a good talk with smelly girl yesterday,
i realise how much we've all changed - for the better.
frankly speaking i dont really like
to be reminded of my past, but hey,
ain't i'm out of it? :)

sorry janice my bffff bout being so emo this past one month
things' been happening but i'm fine and getting better,
will update you on email later :)
have fun in the states meantime!

prelims is tmr,
someone please tell me why i should be frightened.

faith w/o works is dead.
likewise we love GOD by loving others.
okay, off to bed before i start my chionging!