those were the days

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

And then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my hearts
And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

it's really a beautiful song.
for you.

realisation

yeah, time sure tells it all.
don't be rash i've learnt.
everything in its time,
thanks corrinne may.

more proverbs for me though
more wisdom to seek, heh.

in the stillness of the night

"for your own safety, please purchase this fan"

lol. an inside joke.
the leadership workshop turned out to be memorable.
i ought to start posting pictures;
after they paint a thousand words don't they?

i've been feeling dead tired recently;
musta been all the dead tiring trainings,
i can't even move in the mornings. hahaha.

sometimes i wonder,
am i really a trustworthy person?
apparently alot of people find it comfortable opening up to me
or maybe the world's just more open now; i really don't know.
i just hope i don't let anyone down..

and i just hope that i gave you the best advice.
as much as i wanna be there for you, i can't help but ask myself:
do i really love you?
or is it because you remind me of someone i once loved?
oh well, only time will tell.
goodnight.

you're the one

"okay that's enough. i better stop embarrassing myself in front of my best friend."

"uh.. i think you already did."

"shit."

eunice's was great.
thanks for inviting me to come sha.
and thanks for making me come fareez.
i had fun.. even though the going off part was kinda..
hahaha. only 3 of us will ever know.

camp's not too far off.
so is the musical.
i need all the support and strength and wisdom i can get.

you know what
as time goes by, i'm convinced
that GOD loves me through you.
thanks for being my pillar of support (:

i love my new phone btw
even though i had no chance in choosing, haha.

never say never again

i can't believe i spent the entire day sleeping and bumming around at home.
with hockey, at least more than half the day is well spent.
thank GOD for hockey;
despite all the sweaty-smelly-tiring trainings (:

it's good to be alone once in a while
but sometimes, you wish you weren't alone.
but it's okay.
my mood went up and down today.
thanks girl for making my day.
talking so long could be so fun.

One look at you
and at once I knew,
That no matter whatever,
I'll never say never again.
I'll never say never again.

and it really makes me wonder

apparently no one's blogging but me.
i think im too free, lol.

"argh. my goalkeeping today sucked like hell."


"yeah.. what happened?"


"don't know. not used to it?"


"ala, khidis can you say something encouraging about my performance TODAY?"


"uh, you were great on the treadmill."


"uh, how about something regarding my GOALKEEPING?"


"oh that time i did a reversi and you blocked it"


"no khidis. how about something TODAY?"


"uh.. i don't know."


"okay, i feel like killing myself now".



that's khidis for you;
he's like simply accelerating my act of commiting suicide, HAHAHA.
hockey's like everyday.
i really hope all's well.
still i have a long way to go, esp my fitness. sigh.

btw sentosa yesterday was great
even though half the gang left halfway, lol.

yeah you're right.
i guess i dont know you after all.

all my hungering spirit needs.

indeed, only one person can fill the void in my heart
and that person is out-of-this-world; literally.

sundays are seriously getting really tiring.
the hours spent are as long as the hours
spent in school.
but i guess it's a good thing to be busy in church after all (:

training's from 8 - 6 tomorrow.
but of course, there's a 3 hour lunch break, heh.
i guess i need more of this.
no training actually makes me tired, seriously.

alright, a long day ahead tmr.

and i just realised that i've got the bestest friend
to pour out my soul to.
someone who's there all along (:
now, what would my life be without you?
i seriously can't imagine.

war in the head.

how much is enough?
how much affirmation do i ever need?
in the stillness of the night
the war of 2 worlds in my head.
one says give it my all
the other says you can forget about it.
i wished i knew the answer.

that aside,
science centre and pepper lunch/yoshinoya was fun.
i miss my og peeps.
and it's amazing how time flies..

oh, my toiletbowl's stuck btw.
yawns.

randomness, part 2

"why don't you join cheerleading next year?"

"noooooo. i can't."

"why?"

"i'll be 1 step closer to hell."

"nah, you're already 1 million steps closer to hell, 1 step doesn't matter anymore."

" ..... "


"eh, you wanna ride through there?"

"huh? why?"

"there very dark and scary"

"oh okay lor."

"uh, actually i scared."

" ..... "

*the italics is me.

just came back from a wild ride home with khidis and rezal.
crazy it was, with all the
laughing, screaming, singing, dancing and whatever there was.
i bet the other drivers were staring at us, LOL.
have you heard khidis sing gimme more?
wait till you hear him sing buttons.
oh, wait to you see him club in the car.
bwahahaha!

training today was tiring yet so fun.
loving goalkeeping to bits.
i'll be taking tough shots from now on;
gotta work hard!

damn the insecurities,
but thanks for being my pillar of support.
and thanks for the strength that comes from above.

shagged,
off to bed i go.

randomness, part 1

"the television as compared to movies is just a black box which produces audio and video"

"eh. isn't the movies then just a BIGGER black box?"

"uh..."



"is your hair just as curly as it is on your body?"



"i was so nervous my balls were dancing"


sometimes, it's just so heartbreaking
to know
that the people you truly care about
don't need you.
what's worse is when they even don't know
that you really care.

training's gonna be uber long tmr.
i hope i'll come back alive.

like, at last.

(:
finally, after 23648 hours of searching for a skin
i got this quite decent one.
apparently blogging's more for girls.
the skins are all so girlish. eww. HAHA!

and yes, OP's overrrr!
after tmr i'll be free! whooo!
nothing much,
just bored at home with annoying siblings, whoops.

yeah, beginnings are the toughest.

tried out my not-so-new goalkeep equipment.
trained with my not-so-new goalkeep equipment.
went home with my not-so-new goalkeep equipment.
i swear commuters thought
i was trying to bomb the train/bus, XD
check out the size of my equipment bag
and check out the way i look/walk
with my leg paddings & "shoes" ( (:
fierceness.

training rocks;
even with all the lepaking and screamy girls
BWAHAHA! fierce.
i guess im picking up things fast
hopefully fast enough, heh.

khidir's playing forward.
i'm playing the goalkeep.
now, guess what that means.

H1 is on friday.
i think i'm doomed :(

oh well,
study now!
insecurities for later.