the 3Fs - food fun fellowship

chilling out at YCK til 11 plus
can really be so awesome.
all the great food and great company (:

yup, a christian life is that real-
personal struggles, disppointments,
setbacks & even clashes.
but it's all about building one another up!

i really felt that the session we had was just meaningful in its own ways
yup, christians ain't any better; we're still sinners
but most imptly
we ought to face it, together.
to solve it, together.
and of course we have God too =)

may we stay faithful, always.

Merry Christmas Darling

once again, christmas is here.
and since there was no service,
i went to check out SAC.
yup, they're uber traditional
but i like (:

always remember the first christmas gift-
salvation.

anyways following the service i went to meet up with my church kakis
about 13 of us namely:
jason
michele
magdalene
weide
lionel f
joshua
josiah
grace
elissa
faith
wendelynn
xinling
me

food republic to jalan jalan to arcade to bowling to dinner.
what a great day to spend with great friends.
i wished more could come though.
but there's always next time!

christmas has always been that special
and i doubt nothing can stop that.

christmas actually

it sure is.
musical's over;
that sure marks the end of my busy yet meaningful hols.
all glory and thanks to God for His mercies;
i lost my voice just a day before the musical
with coughs and phlegms too, was really worried.
but tonight, i got my voice back (:
my friends who attended told me i can sing very well =))
well, at least i still have some talent in me
and i thank God for that.
cheers to all the musical comm members too
for their hardwork, dedication and service
i think the musical has been a blessing to all =)

that aside,
what truly is christmas?
is it about the festive spirit?
is it about the presents we buy and receive?
is it about the glorious food we eat?
nope, it aint any of this.

"man will live forever more, because of christmas day"
- mary's boy child

now that's christmas,
amen to salvation.

sit back

it's sure nice to know
that you're missed and remembered by those around you
heck the one and look around,
and you'll be surprised about the things you discover.

"sometimes only GOD allows the other side see the harvest"
- a friend.

perhaps, perhaps that applies for you too.

why don't you do something

literally. i'm so bored at home.
even the wait before going out at 1 feels forever.
my mind & emotions have gone haywire a bit recently;
perhaps i'm still finding myself after all.

...
emotions are indeed powerful.
control them or they control you;
and you end up doing stupid things.
being impulsive & expressive,
it's tough sometimes.
sometimes you just wanna get things off your sleeve.
sometimes you just wanna let people know how you feel.
but nah, i ain't gonna be rash.
if things are meant to be or whatsoever, it will.
saying a few more words doesn't really change everything.
just that now, i'm hearing thoughts and experiencing emotions
which are so not me and it's kinda scary.

that for later,
off to meet fareez (:

btw,
happy 19th' hendra.

dejavu

don't let it affect you ben.
you took much pains to come out of it;
you ain't going back there again.
besides, you know he doesn't need you.

and at the end of it all ;

camp is finally over-
all the months of prep have come to an end.
what can i say?
i really don't know.
as far as i'm concerned,
i only contributed to 10% of the success.
the other 90% was by Him.

who would have thought
that the rain would be held back for games?
that no one was injured during the camp?
that there was not even a single day of rumbling?
that people were actually tired out of writing so much encouragement cards?
that we were not charged at all for all the damages done?
all glory to Him!

camp experience was definitely priceless.
learnt many things, saw many things, enjoyed many things.
as much i miss camp, im really glad it's all over.
thanks guys for all your help & support too-
my camp mistress grace & my dearest camp comm!
couldn't have made it without you all.
i'll talk more about camp soon soon.

i really didnt expect your arrival
and that you'll say to me, "i'm really proud of you."
i really really missed you.

we've got some straightening out to do

wow. i'm like meeting all church mates like everyday now
from shopping
to discussing
to planning
to printing
to packing
to eating
to whatsoever..
being all shagged and stressed and tired
but it's all good.
at least i know i'm doing something meaningful.

unknowingly, i think i'm starting to change
perhaps on the outside, everything's the same
but in my mind,
thoughts are different;
somehow or rather.
for better or worse,
i really don't know.
sometimes, i don't really bother anymore.
and it's a good thing, i guess.

but one thing's for sure
scars will heal in time
and you bet i'm breaking free (:
but yet sometimes,
i'm still confused.
how much should i expect?
how much is enough?
i'll learn in time i guess.
but for now,
i've got lots of soul searching to do
and learning what makes me me.

i bet the road ahead lies exciting futures
and boy, i can't wait for it.

we're all in this together;

we sure survived (again).

if a loser like me can do it,
so can you.

next week - camp prep.
a lil excited, a lil nervous, a lil insecure.
sure be needing all the help i can get!

those were the days

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

And then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my hearts
And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

it's really a beautiful song.
for you.

realisation

yeah, time sure tells it all.
don't be rash i've learnt.
everything in its time,
thanks corrinne may.

more proverbs for me though
more wisdom to seek, heh.

in the stillness of the night

"for your own safety, please purchase this fan"

lol. an inside joke.
the leadership workshop turned out to be memorable.
i ought to start posting pictures;
after they paint a thousand words don't they?

i've been feeling dead tired recently;
musta been all the dead tiring trainings,
i can't even move in the mornings. hahaha.

sometimes i wonder,
am i really a trustworthy person?
apparently alot of people find it comfortable opening up to me
or maybe the world's just more open now; i really don't know.
i just hope i don't let anyone down..

and i just hope that i gave you the best advice.
as much as i wanna be there for you, i can't help but ask myself:
do i really love you?
or is it because you remind me of someone i once loved?
oh well, only time will tell.
goodnight.

you're the one

"okay that's enough. i better stop embarrassing myself in front of my best friend."

"uh.. i think you already did."

"shit."

eunice's was great.
thanks for inviting me to come sha.
and thanks for making me come fareez.
i had fun.. even though the going off part was kinda..
hahaha. only 3 of us will ever know.

camp's not too far off.
so is the musical.
i need all the support and strength and wisdom i can get.

you know what
as time goes by, i'm convinced
that GOD loves me through you.
thanks for being my pillar of support (:

i love my new phone btw
even though i had no chance in choosing, haha.

never say never again

i can't believe i spent the entire day sleeping and bumming around at home.
with hockey, at least more than half the day is well spent.
thank GOD for hockey;
despite all the sweaty-smelly-tiring trainings (:

it's good to be alone once in a while
but sometimes, you wish you weren't alone.
but it's okay.
my mood went up and down today.
thanks girl for making my day.
talking so long could be so fun.

One look at you
and at once I knew,
That no matter whatever,
I'll never say never again.
I'll never say never again.

and it really makes me wonder

apparently no one's blogging but me.
i think im too free, lol.

"argh. my goalkeeping today sucked like hell."


"yeah.. what happened?"


"don't know. not used to it?"


"ala, khidis can you say something encouraging about my performance TODAY?"


"uh, you were great on the treadmill."


"uh, how about something regarding my GOALKEEPING?"


"oh that time i did a reversi and you blocked it"


"no khidis. how about something TODAY?"


"uh.. i don't know."


"okay, i feel like killing myself now".



that's khidis for you;
he's like simply accelerating my act of commiting suicide, HAHAHA.
hockey's like everyday.
i really hope all's well.
still i have a long way to go, esp my fitness. sigh.

btw sentosa yesterday was great
even though half the gang left halfway, lol.

yeah you're right.
i guess i dont know you after all.

all my hungering spirit needs.

indeed, only one person can fill the void in my heart
and that person is out-of-this-world; literally.

sundays are seriously getting really tiring.
the hours spent are as long as the hours
spent in school.
but i guess it's a good thing to be busy in church after all (:

training's from 8 - 6 tomorrow.
but of course, there's a 3 hour lunch break, heh.
i guess i need more of this.
no training actually makes me tired, seriously.

alright, a long day ahead tmr.

and i just realised that i've got the bestest friend
to pour out my soul to.
someone who's there all along (:
now, what would my life be without you?
i seriously can't imagine.

war in the head.

how much is enough?
how much affirmation do i ever need?
in the stillness of the night
the war of 2 worlds in my head.
one says give it my all
the other says you can forget about it.
i wished i knew the answer.

that aside,
science centre and pepper lunch/yoshinoya was fun.
i miss my og peeps.
and it's amazing how time flies..

oh, my toiletbowl's stuck btw.
yawns.

randomness, part 2

"why don't you join cheerleading next year?"

"noooooo. i can't."

"why?"

"i'll be 1 step closer to hell."

"nah, you're already 1 million steps closer to hell, 1 step doesn't matter anymore."

" ..... "


"eh, you wanna ride through there?"

"huh? why?"

"there very dark and scary"

"oh okay lor."

"uh, actually i scared."

" ..... "

*the italics is me.

just came back from a wild ride home with khidis and rezal.
crazy it was, with all the
laughing, screaming, singing, dancing and whatever there was.
i bet the other drivers were staring at us, LOL.
have you heard khidis sing gimme more?
wait till you hear him sing buttons.
oh, wait to you see him club in the car.
bwahahaha!

training today was tiring yet so fun.
loving goalkeeping to bits.
i'll be taking tough shots from now on;
gotta work hard!

damn the insecurities,
but thanks for being my pillar of support.
and thanks for the strength that comes from above.

shagged,
off to bed i go.

randomness, part 1

"the television as compared to movies is just a black box which produces audio and video"

"eh. isn't the movies then just a BIGGER black box?"

"uh..."



"is your hair just as curly as it is on your body?"



"i was so nervous my balls were dancing"


sometimes, it's just so heartbreaking
to know
that the people you truly care about
don't need you.
what's worse is when they even don't know
that you really care.

training's gonna be uber long tmr.
i hope i'll come back alive.

like, at last.

(:
finally, after 23648 hours of searching for a skin
i got this quite decent one.
apparently blogging's more for girls.
the skins are all so girlish. eww. HAHA!

and yes, OP's overrrr!
after tmr i'll be free! whooo!
nothing much,
just bored at home with annoying siblings, whoops.

yeah, beginnings are the toughest.

tried out my not-so-new goalkeep equipment.
trained with my not-so-new goalkeep equipment.
went home with my not-so-new goalkeep equipment.
i swear commuters thought
i was trying to bomb the train/bus, XD
check out the size of my equipment bag
and check out the way i look/walk
with my leg paddings & "shoes" ( (:
fierceness.

training rocks;
even with all the lepaking and screamy girls
BWAHAHA! fierce.
i guess im picking up things fast
hopefully fast enough, heh.

khidir's playing forward.
i'm playing the goalkeep.
now, guess what that means.

H1 is on friday.
i think i'm doomed :(

oh well,
study now!
insecurities for later.

AH HAH!

i got sick of LJ
blogspot's still the best HAHA.
at least now i can link up and have more interesting skins.
by the way, i joined hockey! (:
see you!