i've been thinking
maybe it's just a phase
maybe i'm just too tired
maybe i've changed
yes certain emotions and feelings can't be stopped
but they can be controlled
i'll do just that.
pull yourself together.
i guess i was really selfish
being unreasonable,
expecting others to appreciate me the way i want it;
forgetting to look at the many things they've done for me
"you know i'm down for you. though sometimes i'm not there"
was what you said.
i'm so so sorry, brother.
whatever it is,
no matter how much i've changed
no matter how far away i may seem
no matter how different i may seem
i'm still benjay.
i'm still dreading P.E tmr.
